Princess' Diary

HALLELUJAH!!

Im so happy that today, I can announce to the world that I am a second upper class law graduate, class of 2010! All to the glory goes to God. In my heart, I thought very well that I would fail but God saved me from such trouble and led me to victory, over and over again. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along.

In my 17 years of studying, I have always been a top student. In primary school, my teacher used my answers as model answers in math. Represented my class for many math quizzes and also landed first place in Bahasa Melayu, best malay essay and entered malay 'rencana' because my teacher kept telling me that I have potential in malay writing and on one Monday assembly, he mentioned that Chinese students can even write better than the Malays. I knew he was referring to me because he was Malay language teacher. Was a prefect, ketua kumpulan and performed Malay and Kadazan dances as well as represented Petaling in a Malay dance called Boria and came out second for Selangor.

In Secondary school, I always did very well for all my subjects (except Add maths! haha) eg. 92 for Geography and 90 for Sejarah and Physics when my peers all hated it. Represented school in Form 4 and 5 for Olympiad Math and even beat the top boy, much to his surprise in a Math IQ school level test. Was also the 0.04% of SPM students in Malaysia 2005 who scored perfect score in SPM- 10A1s. Awarded RM 7000 by Taylor's College for outstanding academic achievement in SPM. I dont know what it means by not working hard and expecting to get good grades. My parents have always cultivated this healthy habit of putting in much effort to succeed well and it has very well influenced me in every area of my life. Maybe it's also because Im not a very bright kid, but I compensate that with working hard- doing past papers, model questions and making my own notes.

In College, A-levels was a challenge to me. I didnt do exactly as well as I hoped to do, 2A's (Physics and Econs) and 3Bs. (Math, Chemistry and Thinking Skills). In first year university, I was second in class, one of the few who didnt had to resit any papers.

In the second year of uni, I was awarded 1000 pounds by Cardiff University for outstanding academic achievement and just a month ago, 500 pounds for being an excellent all-rounder student, both in academic and extra curricular activities. Having said so, final year 2010 was downright the biggest challenge in my academic life. This time ard, things really didnt go as well as I hoped it would be. Ive come to realised that it takes more for me to graduate this year than by my own means. I needed a miracle to pass one paper...and God performed one exclusively for me.

I had 1 core subject and 3 optional subjects to choose and I choose 2 bulky ones out of interest- Evidence and Family. I did so badly in Evidence- Lemme tell u hw bad it went. It was so bad, that i even decided to skip to the loo because I didnt know what else to write! Wasnt even sure how to answer some parts...So bad that I cried while studying for the next paper.. Tears rolled down every few minutes. This is really the first time I felt no confidence in even passing...na-da. None. When I was on the phone with my dearest cutie mother yesterday who was telling me that she doesnt know what to wear and that she bought this blue dress, I replied saying, "Ma dont buy anything first ................. *pause* Wait till I get my results......... ". I have no confidence in myself then..Really. I told myself that if I graduate this year, it is Jesus who helped me. I was crapping for my last essay. Only 1 and a half pages!! Chew Hui Ann wrote only 1 and a half pages for an essay! And i know shit what Im writing. And for the other 3 qustions in Evidence, I was tembaking here and there, plus it didnt help that I didnt have enough sleep wheras I slept like a baby for the previous papers. Maybe subconsciously I was worried about Evidence (yeah it's that hard!) and couldnt put my mind off thinking evn when I was in bed when the clock strike midnight. But you know what, God really showed himself to be more than faithful.

The law school released the results a day earlier than they said they would. And guess what? I did amazingly well in all of my subjects, including the one that I tot i failed..i got 55! haha I was only hoping to pass with a 40! Not kidding. The other subjects, I scored a high 2:1. Two 65s (Trust and Family) and a 68 (Sale of Goods)! OMG! Almost a first class. Ah. God you are so good to me. You have always been and will continue to be. And to this, I am forever grateful.

To me, graduation is the second most important ceremony after marriage. It is my passport to a whole new world out there, a way out of poverty. My parents had long booked their air ticket to attend my graduation and last March, I already hired n paid for my graduation gown without even contemplating the possibility of failing or ever having to resit. This time ard, God showed me that even if I cant, He will do a miracle for me.

I promised myself that I will remember this day all the rest of my life. It is not by my intellectual ability, not by my efforts but it's by His grace and His grace alone that led me through victory. All glory goes to God!!