Princess' Diary

I realised that I haven't been posting any pictures on my blog, making it kinda boring eh? haha. Ahh. I'll try to put in more effort in blogging, who knows how how much "me-time" i'll get once I start working like a horse. haha kidding. I do not want to age 10 years older when you see me next time.

Silently, deep down in my heart I pray that I'll get well adjusted to working life once I start. Dont judge me please. Now I sound like one of those sheltered lil' gal who hasnt had a taste of how hard life is and what it takes to make ends meet. Ahh. But you can't blame me for feeling this way. Speaking to seniors that I know, some acquaintances, and some strangers that I've googled online and thankfully found them on FB (Social media was created for a time like this!) scares me. One of the most intelligent woman that I've met in my life said that going through chambering makes her think whether she's actually cut for the job. They operate at a speed of 200km/hr. :S Really? So fast r? :,( Me very scared. But quitting? Okie, one thing for sure, quitting is not in my dictionary. NEVER EVER. That's my take on challenges. (Maybe i shouldn't act all confident, you know everything changes in life! Nothing is constant. In the end, only one thing is - God.) So maybe I shouldn't say that I wont quit, but i DO NOT want to quit and im not even letting myself think of it before I try. How hard can it be anyway since I've survived Bar school and was going through a rough patch at the same time. How did I do it? AH! Only by the grace of God. 

Okie going back to the FB msgs with seniors and strangers, they were nothing but kind souls, replying my long-winded emails and never-ending questions. Worst of all, speaking to many makes me even more confuse than before because some says... "oh you should go to a big firm, meet more people, diverse workload." And some on the other hand..." no ann, go to a middle size firm, you'll have more hands-on experience..." I cant believe that i'm actually considering the firms based on location. KL is not the best place to drive to back and fro you know. How? :S

Why choosing a firm can be so stressful?? Really. Why? I'm really bad in making decisions, something I have to learn badly. Too many choices. That's why I pray, (sorry diverting a bit), God I dont need 10 guys to fall in love with me (oh please dont!), I just need ONE faithful, godly man. Yes. Faithful. And faithful to the very end. You know how people say that everything you want in a man changes as you grow older. Well, true that! I know I want someone reliable, someone that'll accompany me to Tesco to do grocery shopping (I love grocery shopping as much as i love shopping for clothes! hehe so aunty right?) and thinks that I'm beautiful even when I look like crap - bad hair days, no make-up on, in pyjamas with spectacles on, someone that will wake up in the middle of the night to tend to the baby when he/she's crying so that mummy can have some peace of mind & sleep .... The list goes on and on, but i think it's important that the person is responsible, self-motivated, able to lead the family and have initiative in getting things done so that I do not have to succumb to nagging (what can be more repulsive to men than those seven alphabets?)

Anyway, I've been watching a lot of movies since I moved to Cheltenham. HMV is brilliant, i tell you! No more streaming movies from letmewatchthis.cm once you've seen extremely clear HD movies! Trust me! So many promos going on in the shop. I said to che in an excited manner, "OMG, why is the movie so clear?!!" And my sister laughed all the more saying "hahaha what have you been watching all these while la??!". Guilty as charged. No more watching pirated movies. Originals from now on! Life is like that right? Once you've tasted something so good, how can you go back to your past choices? So, yes! DO NOT SETTLE FOR SECOND BEST in anything you do/anyone. (Actually telling this to myself)